appointment #1 for baby is the 24th at 8.15am.  just a physical.  appt #2 is a one hour consult with pac repro on the 26th.  hmm.  all this is real.  yep, yep yep.  whoo hoo.  i’d be a bit more excited, but i have comprehensive exams for my phd next week, and i just woke up from a nap.

oh, and here’s this for counting the ovum before they are fertilized?  i ordered an all-in-one diaper that was 1/2 off.  not one size though.  if i don’t get pregnant i will give it to someone who is and who uses cloth.

i’m going to do it at home, with an unknown donor.  that’s why i decided to go with pacific reproductive services - b/c they’ll ship that unknown donor to my home.  i’m going to get 2 vials to use on over 2 days.  i’ve been tracking my cycles since december - just my periods, but not doing the temperature thing.. i started to, but then i read that it’s really only useful to let me know after i’ve ovulated.  but i’ve got one of those clearblue easy fertility monitors, that i bought a long time ago, which still works.  i’ll use it for the first time on saturday - so, march i’ll track.  i’ll ttc for the first time either in april or may.   i’ve been emailing with a woman on the choice mom’s list and she told me that she did it at home too - which made me feel better - A LOT better.

for the sperm bank i’m going to use.  i just put them in the mail, with my credit card number in it.  i also just had an honest conversation with a person that is probably my best friend in town.  no - i don’t really know what i’m getting myself into, but does anyone, really?  and i won’t know until i’m in it.  i can do this, i know i can.  too many women have come before me who’ve done this.  it’s my turn now.